Sexuality and Struggle
First and foremost, I am washed in the blood of Jesus Christ. At a young age, I knew that I was different than most boys and that in itself was a battle for me. I will not be able to explain why I had to suffer the bondage of homosexuality and the filthy spirit’s that do nothing more than try to destroy the kingdom of God. I’ve always been ashamed of my identity and that conviction comes from God the creator and I’m thankful that I have those convictions that prove God is with me. I can remember a time in my life when I was involved in the “gay lifestyle” and felt comfortable around that misery until I came to a place in my life where the lies and reprobate tendencies left me completely empty. I was homeless when I came to the Lord and I’ve been with him since the fall of 1984. I was no longer using hard drugs and found a job, married a beautiful woman who knew my weaknesses but loved me through my journey and to this day she is still my best friend, even though our marriage ended and it ended for many reasons, including the homosexual demons that I still battle. What I am sure of is that when I stay rooted into the word of God and meditate on his word day and night, I do not stray from the truth and the Holy Spirit is my strength.
I tell the world that I love Jesus Christ, and I do. If I abide in him, then I have to trust in him, just as his word tells me to have faith, and to exercise my faith. Without faith, there is no pleasing God (Hebrews 11:6).
I know that I cannot manipulate God but I also know what it’s like to hide from him, and especially when I allow my mind to wander. For example, I was a homosexual and I battle the temptations in my head at the most unexpected times. What is hard is when a thought of fornication pops into my head, I have a choice. I can either entertain those filthy thoughts, or, I can call on my savior, Jesus Christ. I can testify that God is true with his word and makes a way for me to escape, just as it is written (1 Corinthians 10:13). When evil spirits want to come to torment and overwhelm me with lies, I must call on the Lord Jesus Christ or I will stumble and fall down. When I resist the devil, he flees. The demons may return but they must not rest in my sin, and, it gets easier in the fight when I, through the Holy Sprit resist sin, this I know. Amen.
The other day, I was bored and I wanted to find a project to help me with my boredom. What happens? A thought and it was an overwhelming and impure thought came into my head and I felt the strength of the Holy Spirit at the same time. Yes, good and evil are present in my boredom. I was thinking about how I could look up technology Gif’s (pictures) that shows how a woman becomes a man, but, lying to myself and to the Holy Spirit of what that could and did lead into. So, it’s disgusting what they do the female anatomy to create what the medical field calls “male anatomy”. I didn’t stop there, I went further to see the lust’s of man and fornicated in my head, pushing the Holy Spirit aside and again, I am sorry. Then, guilt settles in and the demons turns the lies into fear. Do you know what a setback that is for my life? Yes, it is a setback and I had the power to run from the temptation but I fell at the fork of the road within the excuse of boredom. I know that homosexuality makes God vomit and I know it is a sickness, just as adultery or casual sex is a sickness. I will return to my cross and I will pick it up and carry it. I also know why it is a sickness as I grow in God’s word, through faith. The Holy Spirit utters to God and I feel the power in solitude when I lean on him. I love the Holy Spirit burning bright in my soul and pleasing God is constantly on my mind. The closer I get to God, the less that I am tempted to error, amen. And I know for a fact, the closer I get to God, the closer he gets to me! Amen.
As I grow in my Christian faith and stumble, I feel the Holy Spirit’s soft voice of correction, and I adore that. It is cold and lonely when the Holy Spirit is told to look the other way, and to be forgiving. Then, I am only fooling myself because the Holy Spirit is my witness through it all. If I’m going to be disobedient with God’s word and not call on him then he will silence himself within my soul. I hate that, when the Lord is silent with my soul or the light in my heart dims, because of foolish disbelief. I am tired of stunting my spiritual growth. I want Jesus Christ to be a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. I want Jesus Christ to increase my faith and understanding more than I care about life itself. So, what I am trying to say is that when you love somebody, you don’t want to hurt them and you don’t want to use them! That is exactly what Christ was referring to when Peter asked him how many times can a brother be forgiven. When I trust Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit grows stronger, the light burns brighter and temptations become less and less. My faith becomes stronger when I trust and walk with the living God. Praise God!
When I am tempted to do evil, I will call on the Lord, I will remember the consequences beneath the award. I will seek his counsel in everything that I do. I will pray without ceasing. I hate it when the Holy Spirit is silent because of my choice to be disobedient. I know that faith comes by hearing and I know that I’m not a puppet and that I have to work with faith. My free will must become that which pleases God, and not my flesh. Loneliness is an excuse when you know God, through the Holy Spirit. The power is there. I must trust God and allow him to work in my life and then in turn, he will not silence himself, and above it all he abides in me. Christ abides in all of his members. Thank you, Jesus Christ. Amen.
In Christ,
Cliff Tompkins
5/15/26
Jesus Christ talks about adultery in the heart: Matthew 5:28: 28 But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart. Jesus Christ has the power to forgive, only God knows the heart.
Romans 1:26-27 and the Reprobated mind.
26 Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural sexual relations for unnatural ones. 27 In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed shameful acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their error.
1Corinthians 6:9-10 and the lost.
9 Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God?Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers, nor men who have sex with men 10 nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.
Jesus Christ warns humanity about fornication.
Biblical viewpoints: sex is not merely a physical act but a spiritual, emotional, and energetic "one-flesh" union. Here are the key aspects of this belief based on the search results:
Spiritual Exchange and "One Flesh": Sexual intimacy creates a deep spiritual union ("becoming one flesh"). When this occurs outside of marriage, this exchange is believed to take place without God’s protection, allowing for the transfer of negative energies, spirits, and burdens between partners.
Soul Ties and Baggage: Improperly bonded sex can lead to "soul ties" or "psychic cords," which can attach you to a partner’s emotional, spiritual, or mental baggage.
"Spiritual Sponge" Effect: During such sexual encounters, individuals can become a "spiritual sponge," absorbing the consciousness, negative emotions, and burdens of the other person.
Consequences on Well-being: The result can be that you take on the other person’s trauma, brokenness, or spiritual turmoil, which may feel like a heavy emotional or spiritual weight. This can lead to personal spiritual blockages or a sense of being burdened, drained, or haunted by the other person's issues.
Separation from God: In biblical terms, fornication is considered to "separate a person from God" and damage the body, which is intended as a temple of the Holy Spirit. Galatians 5:19-21: Lists sensuality among works of the flesh. Those who DO NOT inherit the kingdom of God.
Ephesians 4:19: Describes the ungodly as giving themselves over to sensuality.
Romans 13:13: Exhorts believers to behave properly, not in sexual promiscuity and sensuality.
1 Peter 4:3: Mentions living in sensuality as a past life that should be abandoned.
King James Version (Matthew 7:21-23)Jesus said:
21” Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.
22 Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?
23 And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.”
Romans 7:2-3
English Standard Version
2 For a married woman is bound by law to her husband while he lives, but if her husband dies she is released from the law of marriage.
3 Accordingly, she will be called an adulteress if she lives with another man while her husband is alive. But if her husband dies, she is free from that law, and if she marries another man she is not an adulteress.
1 Corinthians 6:9-10
New International Version
(9) Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor men who have sex with men (10) nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.
